Emptiness creeping in,
Emptiness all around.
Emptiness is everywhere,
The world cannot be found.
Blackness in my soul,
A void in my heart.
Like life is almost over,
We're just waiting to depart.
I can't find the way,
When all the lights are out.
The darkness is everywhere,
All I can do is shout.
But someone is there,
They come to my aid.
I can't find the way myself,
I was so afraid.
There is always a way,
It is sometimes hard to see.
But it is always easier,
With someone helping me.
A mind once found,
Is lost again,
A life once in order,
Is now full of pain.
Everything seemed fine,
'Til it all came down.
It all hit me so hard,
I think I'm going to drown.
Voices in the corner,
Figures in front of me.
Everything is coming closer,
Everyone's my enemy.
The world is all in on it,
They won't leave me alone.
I must have done something,
I just wish I could atone.
Why do they want to kill me?
What is going on?
Why can't I stop the voices,
Where have my friends gone?
They all turned aggainst me,
They are in on it too.
Death is all they want,
Nothing less will do.
"Wait, something's wrong,"
"That person is
Random Lapse of Sanity Part 1 by Varyl, literature
Literature
Random Lapse of Sanity Part 1
He walks alone,
Like a silent gnome.
He wonders around,
Never going home.
Going down the halls,
Walking in a random door.
He starts to eat some chips,
Wishing there was more.
Silence eats at his soul,
Like a choir on lunch.
The gnome knows nothing,
He doesn't have a hunch.
Berries invade the silence,
Bringing chaos to this place.
Light flashes in the gnome's eyes,
As the gnome pulls out his mace.
All is silent for a moment,
As the berries look over their foe.
The fight breaks out,
The gnome suffering a blow to the toe.
The berries take their chance,
And begin to overwhelm him.
But he pulls out his Ace,
He says, "My name
A glimmer of light,
A ray of hope.
A falling heart,
Finds a little rope.
An end to the darkness,
The death of the void.
A falling object,
You need not avoid.
The shower of meteors,
Has one glowing orb.
All defenses can drop,
For this light you can absorb.
A glimmer of hope,
A spark in your heart.
Igniting a feeling,
You thought fell apart.
An explosion of flames,
Sending light to a dark mind.
Thoughts reappearing,
That you thought you'd left behind.
Even if for just a moment,
A soul has been lit.
Taking in all the light,
As much as can fit.
Weighing the odds,
Tipping the scale.
Trying to find,
A place to bail.
Wondering where?
Wondering how?
Wondering when,
And knowing now.
Unwilling to die,
Unable to think.
Cannot sleep,
Not even a wink.
A day of happiness,
A day of joy.
Giving some chocolate,
Or maybe a toy.
A day to celebrate love,
A day to express it.
A day to entertain,
A day to show your whit.
Not all enjoy it,
Lonliness expands.
Seeing so many others,
Holding hands.
Seeing the happiness,
In everyone's eyes.
Seeing the place,
Where your void lies.
You try to ignore it,
You say it's bullshit.
But deep inside,
You know you want it.
You cannot let go,
Your heart continues to ache.
You're experiencing a nightmare,
You just wish you could awake.
Can what has happened be true?
I keep trying to awake.
But find it isn't a dream,
It must be a mistake.
I can't have been so lucky,
To have gained her love.
My life was barren,
Her love was undreamed of.
My life's gaps are now filled,
Her soul completes my empty life.
With a union we seal our cracks,
Going home as husband and wife.
A single heart,
A solitary mind.
A stranded soul,
Left far behind.
The mind is tainted,
A pitiful blob.
The door to the soul,
Missing its knob.
The broken shell,
Of a once great mind.
A broken watch,
You can not wind.
I am mad at the sun,
I am upset with the moon.
For their pace is not fast enough,
I want these days to pass faster.
For I know one day we will be together,
But I wish that day would come sooner.
Though once that happens,
I would want the opposite.
I would want them to crawl,
And the days and nights last forever.
Though I fear not either of the two,
For I know our love will survive their deaths.
I wish I could control them both,
Nay, I simply wish that they had less control over me...
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